never give up never give in..........so they say

so i kinda get the feeling no 1 is reading this so im gonna use it as a diary lol but if you do read it woop awsome
soooo my life at the mo is im stuck single sleep decides it doesnt like me and is dodging me like im a leper im falling for a girl i cnt be with which fucking kills but iv had it all my life that or iv lost the girl iv liked/loved so i should be able to bounce back and i have from me and the ex brkeing up but yeh thats life i find i say that alot thats life why is it why cnt we make stuff happen for ourselves and iv thought that for a while never give up never give in and iv come close before but now im on the edge i  step wrong and i know im hitting rock bottom for the first time in my life firstly i dont work as a single unit i just entr self destructive patterns of eating stupid things gaming and spending stupiod amounts of time in front of a p.c screen such as now woop im living the high life why cnt i just be happy alone other people are people say im an awsome guy i am so sweet and careing and loverly  but yet girls dnt give me the time of day if any 1 is reading this i dont know why the lonely rablings of a 19 year old but if you wanna get in touch or any one is in the same situation email me on jamieleddo@yahoo.co.uk