those moment that start new chapters in you life

soo a year ago today i kissed my ex for the first time and i knew life was looking up then in January my mum was  told she had cancer for the third time nd here comes life smashing back to earth my mum lived nd is ok so far my ex went uni  and sadly we didn't last nd thats life again goes back to knocking me down nd this just this year life is filled with these moments but most the time we forget the happy moments right now im alone i don't like it  i need people in my life but i dont think il be meeting any one soon maby this is just the sad blog of a nobody that's  sad bitter nd lonely but i just wish these moments could leave me alone the last three years have been so hard and it wont let up to let the pain end i just wish that i could have a nice shock for once is it just me or is it every one nd has ny one ever been pulled out of this spiral if any one reads this let me know