so shes irish (and secretly a ginge)

so iv met a girl infact im now in a stable relationship with a girl infact more then stable happy were both mad as hatters and we fucking love it shes abit of a gamer nothing too heavy but she has a few consoles shes a very talented cook wether its baking or main meals she is stunning a lil short arse with long red hair and beautiful eyes and its a fire red not ginge even though secretly she is.

and like me she has faced hard times and come out of it all the better as has every one shes been hurt upset and trusted the wrong people but were getting thorugh this and she even lets me play on her wii while she cooks me food is there a better woman?

seriusly shes amazing and theres nothing more i can say but fuck you im addicted to fucking supernatural as if i didnt have enough needless crap to do and now i need to watch this thank you :I

life is goood :D

soooooooooooo right now life is gooooooooooooood
im going to see foofighters at leeds later this year cant wait should be amazing so yeh

right now for the real part of my blog mass effect 3 right there are 3 games that are centerd round you defeating this big mother fuckers called the reapers now these are ment to be the halt of chaos there sythisied machines that every few million years they kick the shit out the whole universe leave very few races alive aslong as they have not evolved to the point that they give a shit now heres a warning the next bit will be spoilers from the story of all 3 games right you play shepperd AKA mr bad ass so much so in the second game he gets spaced with his oxygen leaking  then falls to a planet from space though the atmosphire and then this bits left of him got scrapped up and put back together by a very angry evil corporation that hates every one but humans then they give you a shiny new normandy and get most of the crew that didnt get blown to lil chunks of pace meat back in plac eon your ship and all happy then like the first one you fly round meet lots of friends and go and shoot every nasty person in the universe seens i the first game iit look like evry one is happy at the end and every thing is good.

then boom all hell brakes loose  and loads of shit goes down and some creepy bug dudes go round stealing poeple only humans from the universe on a planet scale and you go kill all dem fukkas at the end and watch as most your crew dies in my case jack and legion (legion comes back becuse fuck yeh legion) hes also a geth and a sniper and goes well with garrus again you kill a reaper but this time all is not happy they know more are on the way

fast forwerd to 3 out of nowere reapers are all over the universe kicking the shit of off every one you try to get your team back edi jumps in to a synth body and starts fucking joker ash gets the living fuck beaten out of her mirander is running around after her sis basicaly the worlds gone to shit asnd no 1 seams that botherd  and this is all fine infact the story over all 3is awsome but.....the ending........hmmmmmmmmmmmmm......the ending is shit no matteer what u pick the endings the same and the caracters you build uup relationships with are just forggotern about you die the end .......why build up to that and then just stop itssss bullll shit and bioware said that there going to re make the ending as a dlc this im happy with due to the comunity finaly getting a say it works comunity rule i think your sould let me make a game it would be awsome :P any way im in work so i should go bye guys :D

mass effect 3 and so on

soooooooo im here again still trying to do more blogging but failing hahahaha so rugbys on hold after my knee got fucked over and iv been limping on and off for a week or two its not good but bareable erm loving mass effect 3 in two days iv got 15 hours on campaign and god knows how long online but i cant belive what happens in story :( its sad and i dumped mirander on it becouse i want ash back lolz

rekindled my love of dawn of war after playing it for 6 hours a day for two weeks  playing a modded version of the space marines wit messed up skins some ultramarines some blood ravens some blood angels and finally some black templars it was messed up but i liked it also had caps of 200 insted of 20 made the game crazy but i liked it i also have started painting my marines again and im looking forward to the new moddles coming out soon

i also should be getting some tax back this week meaning new laptop and more money a week coz fuck yeh no more taxing woop then what i need to do is get rid of love fim and get netfliks becouse its just better also need more microsoft points lol turning in to a list of things jamie needs to do hahahahahahahaha sooooooooo its yeh shoping time also england won me a bet but ladbrooks are being dicks soooo need to  sort out that woop life ok time to rock seee yehhhh ohh yeh annndd i have an awsome lads night on saterday so i will end up drunk and on guitar hero wooop life (again) bye people

i got knocked out but im finally up again

sooooooo hey guys gesss what weekend from heaven firstl i met a beautiful smart funny sexy amazing lady who im very happy to have in my life we had a very very very very good time together at the weekend we even spoke about things iv never spoke to a girl about and she knew it all i was amazed also she found me funny thats the bigger shock lol so yeh that was cool

 i also got knocked out in rugby which was fun i won us the ball though got carried off  which was even funnier

finally compleated mass effect 2 today legion  and jack died :[ just like splat dead i was like legion noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo but jack wasnt a big deal tbh i was like ohhh ok and yeh thats that cant wait for 3 too come out woop woop trying to get in too assassins creed revelations but its not working atm im like noooo i need a space ship so woo for that

also i finally grew that lil part oof who i used to be that was left in too a full copie of old me keeping the bits i like and changing what i dont so life is finally good again and iv only seen that thanks to a certain sum 1 :)

bored bored bored gess what im bored

sooooooooo hey guys im back again so yes the time since i last blogged have been rather intresting (well at least for me) alot of things in my life have been moveing at a fast pace my rugbys really taken off  i have got to be close friesnds with an old friend i have met new friends im smashing through mass effect 1 & 2 and genrally haveing a good time :) until today late for work works deads so im blogging insted of working i think iv finaly found a new stable period in my life and taken on bored the good changes in my self and reverted the ones i didnt like so much sooo yeh thuings are looking up.

im speaking to a very beautiful girl who is very cool she has the best taste in things ever i mean she likes vampires not sparkly ones real neck ripping blood spilling ones and zombies shes geeky and loverly so we shall see how that goes :)

my rugby is just going epic im staring to feel more confident and like im back in the old days had some craking games

im loveing the gray at the moment its one of the best filmes ever i love it its dark gritty and adresses how humans react to catastrophy and how not every one can adapt to loss or damage to there world and how scary wolves are (i still want one as a pet)

my apreticeship is stilll trying to drag out the falure of not getting us jobs by making shit up and giving us a week off (im happy its paid)

the RBS six nations have started and fuck you all that hate me for this but england have started terifically i mean its a new team they have played together twice and won both matches there defence is cast iron i mean they have been sloppy had alot of issues in the backs but there good i mean wales will be a chalange but when arnt thay i still dont agree with some members of the team but people never do i think this team looking foward could win the world cup in 2015 yes thats along time away but thats the goal this squad is young yet they manage to take on decient teams in there stride not one of the players that are young and playing for the first time havent freeked out havent been scared they go out and play rugby i mean englad are always better in the second half but tese are perfect in the second hal i cant see them winning this year but i can next year  quite easily

the avengers ohhh my god i am loveing the build up i think this is the movie comic book moment that defines years of sub culture coming in to the lime light this is the next big culture shock lord of the rings harry potter the avengers this is bringing so called nerds out of dark damop hiding places (metophorically) and giving them there say as more people start to love theses characters they get more apcepted which could help in alot of cases of school bullying would have helped me :)

and finally mass effect god i cant wait its mass effect its such a good game you love thecharacters if you have to choose between them it hurts its like when you think gandalf dies if you hadent read the books whrn you went the cinima it hit you hard its like WHAT NO NO WHY  and then hes like bitch please i dont die but this you start to get immersed in the story the situation and the roll your playing 2 games on my shepperd has done so much and yet nothing the voice acting is perfect the chacrters are veried and brillient and just the story is exspansive and engageing.
so yeh its a long one to day read away see yeh

p.s i know the spelling is fucked i also really dont care k? :)

hey i am still alive ..........just :D

sooooo hi im sorry iv not blogged in a while i have had my head up my arse as i have already said a few times but now my friend was like write something to read in collage so i am hope your happy :D: iv been buisy binge eating playing mass effect and listening to very old albems becouse im in the second legg of getting over my ex lol iv met a nice girl who im talkint to at the moment so il see how that comes so im finally moving on all so mass effect is such a good game why didnt i enjoy it the first time round im planning on gettint 1 and 2 finished before number 3 comes out for which i now cant wait :) sooo yeh i dont know what this blogg is anymore it was bout geeky stuff then it was about feelings now i dont know its a mix so yeh atm i think im happy im not 100% sure but im think i am although i doo feel rather lonely and with valentines coming up im deading  facebook that day i might just go to an internet black out for that day dunno maby just xbox day iv been thiinking about life and how i might have set my relationship goals too high i mean a cute geeky girl that wants me as if i should be that lucky i mean thats life im not a looker and im not special but im caring and passionate  but thats me maby il die loney old and depressed or maby il day old happy and surrounded by loved one i dont know but hay ho il take it in my stride and its the 6 nations so that always puts me in a good mood so yeh thats my life if some one reading pleas comment...

ok sooooooo lil obsessed..............ok alot obsessed

soooo skyrim i know it was like months ago bbut i had other things on my mind so oblivion i played alot like alot alot im talking hundreds of hours i did it all all skill max all spells and so on yes i know im epic so yeh skyrim iv started to walk that path im not complaining i love it but its not just skyrim star wars is back in my life and stronger then ever im 42% through my third book of the year and its my second star wars book i know two thirds of the book iv read have been star wars get me uber nerd i also got told my beard made me look like qui gon jinn [a compliment of the highst order] but iv been refured too as thee star wars guy i mean yess i know alot from planet names to characters that no one has ever herd of who knew that chewy dies??? and who knows how??? well i do yess im that bad and getting worse the last is an sorrowful end to a trilogy some books iv been reading was the strain trilogy and fucking hell there a good read wrote by director Guillermo del toro [hellboy 1 and 2 pans labyrinth] think vampires still with the old myths silver and sunlight kill they cant cross bodies of water but now think zombie hive mind and finally add in fucked up parasite and then you get this book its horror at its best but it asks you questions with out even knowing it look up this book it will not disapoint its a truly epic tale of love and hate and im sad its ended soooooo yeh :D chat too me if your reading ooooooooooooooo anddddd sherlock OH MY GOD!!!!!!!! SHERLOCK IS AMZING I DONT CARE WERE YOU ARE FIND IT AND WATCH IT THAT IS ALLL :)

never give up never give in..........so they say

so i kinda get the feeling no 1 is reading this so im gonna use it as a diary lol but if you do read it woop awsome
soooo my life at the mo is im stuck single sleep decides it doesnt like me and is dodging me like im a leper im falling for a girl i cnt be with which fucking kills but iv had it all my life that or iv lost the girl iv liked/loved so i should be able to bounce back and i have from me and the ex brkeing up but yeh thats life i find i say that alot thats life why is it why cnt we make stuff happen for ourselves and iv thought that for a while never give up never give in and iv come close before but now im on the edge i  step wrong and i know im hitting rock bottom for the first time in my life firstly i dont work as a single unit i just entr self destructive patterns of eating stupid things gaming and spending stupiod amounts of time in front of a p.c screen such as now woop im living the high life why cnt i just be happy alone other people are people say im an awsome guy i am so sweet and careing and loverly  but yet girls dnt give me the time of day if any 1 is reading this i dont know why the lonely rablings of a 19 year old but if you wanna get in touch or any one is in the same situation email me on jamieleddo@yahoo.co.uk

ok soooooo this is strange for me

right hey im back soooooooooooooo yeh i really like this girl like alot its the first girl iv really liked since my ex like realy liked not just wow shes hot  im starting too fall for her and she doesn't like me back in that way at all .....so yeh that feels amazing i mean at the party on sat she was the most beautiful girl there i mean wow everything about her blows my mind just everything but i know i van never be with her girls like her and guys like me arnt ment to be together i mean shes like 100% epic and im well im mee the geeky warhammer playing loser thats the type of guys girls see as the friend  im not very good looking and im not super smart and i dont have alot of money too spare but i am caring but i dont think thats what girls look for tbh i always try to be a gent thats how i got my ex i always do what i can for any one but i supose you get what your given in life that was the party if you wanted too see and i know i probs ruin the pitcher but hey i loved my costume it was a good night thanks to every 1 there

hidden blades and party days

 sooooooo yehhhhh hey! i dont really have much going on today or have i for a few days now so that's why iv not been blogging soooo here i am tonight im going to a costume party that i have been waiting for ever for becouse my ex mad me an ezio auditore costume and i finally have a reason too ware it woop! also i finished batman arkham city
 sooo thats awsome its better then the first i love gliding i mean your just like
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee kick guy in head orrrr wooooo i can see everything from here i also
 still have a huuge love of ace combattt omg its ssooooogoood i mean jets missiles helicopters and its just like
 boom boom boom you win it also kinda helps that im reallygood at it soooooo yeh party time
 oooooo iv started playing rugby again second row for those of u who know rugby
 its a forward for those of you that dont so i doo all the hard work while
 the backs sit back and play with them selves hmmmmmmmmmmm
i need to get up but i really cant be arsed classic rock blogging and bed is far too appealing to get up from
but i supose i better go il rite again soon

to the girl who text me after midnight to ask how tall i was :)

so yeh u know who you are look you are amazing and beautiful and an amazing friend you jhave put up with so much shit and still been there for me when iv needed you weather it was old woman feeling me up or the way i felt bout my self you helped ALOT and ui can honestly say your amazing the bitch [u know who i mean] should shut her mouth her sons one incredibly lucky guy and you are a very patient person id do anything for you keep the texts that make me smile coming your beautiful and brilliant :)

the geek is back and this time its nerdy

heyyy gesss what jamie is back i have had my head up my ass for too long and it ends here i have one thing to say and that is thank you to all my friends they have supported me so much through this strange time there have been many some coming far out there way to get stake and give me hugs and look after me on a hard night and others who got me drunk and made me sing on karieoky but you have all helped so much and i love you all i dont wanna list coz il forget people but thank you all of you you are the best friends a guy could ever need i adore you all and i thank you so much for this year and other times in my life :D love you all and thank you to the new friend whos blog i love and has already helped me alot to all of you your awesome and yes im gonna be geeking up my life from now on

love hate and war high school for a the different kid

right il start with me from a young age i was different i must stress this though i loved it i am me and that's all i can be over the last few months after a few crazy years im starting to find me again and i got to thinking  high school was shit i never really fit in the geeks i wasn't hated or beat up every day but i wasnt popular at all i had my friends and i wouldn't change them ever but some times it was hell to start with i dont like football i play rugby in my year in school i was the only one that did and i didnt know who half the players that were being talked about when it came too football this for some strange reason made guys think i was stupid but what ever i lived then when it comes to playing football im even worse now this is were it got bad  if people on my team were good firt of all i felt bad because  im big on the team ethos but second they would physically go for me i had one lad in a p.e lesson physically hit me because a messed up a kick i worked out quick that the lads in my school respected three things how good you were at sport [only available while playing said sport] the girl you were with or how well you fought now me i remember one P,E lesson the bigger lads were like lets smash jamie  now that was there first mistake knocked them on there ass ran all the way in to scare this happened 3 or 4 times then they try to do the same to me i dropped them every time and then that day i was respected i felt grate but the next its back to lets take the piss outta jamie then came the hard part of school and still my life now girls hmmmmm i was never and am still not amazingly attractive im not the worst looking guy in the world but im not stunning and where im from i stuck out about a light year i had long hair  did not stick to fashion and did not listen to the music most people did this did not bode well for me trying to find a girl and it didnt go well so i spent most of high school getting like a 1 week relationship then being dumped getting upset getting beat up and genrally not having tht most stable time i was at that point  pacifistic i would never thourgh a punch back id just get my self out  but then all hell oprend up the group of friends from "years above us left leaving our group smaller and there had been a few "disagreements" so there was blood in the water and the sharks came the kids from the year below us got ballsy nd started fights were there were three of them and one of us we had bricks thrown at us they were throwing full cans of coke bags filled with ink and i even got a bottle of piss thrown over me it started small and got bigger its when i saw how bad it wass affecting the people around me i decided to fight back i could take any one of them one on one but on on 3 or more was harder i can say i stoood my ground and never backed down through cuts bruises and even major knee damage it all ended one Monday with me and 2 friends in a brawl against about 25 other lads i got my knee fucked up but we made our stand and our point and im proud of that and all this was becouse by some stupid idea i was different and a lower class of person it happens every day not just in high school this is just my story but there are many more and many worse i had the only thing to get me though my friends thats all that got me out the other side and i thank them for that and to any one reading this thinking this is happening to me now send me a comment let me try to help THIS SHOULD NOT HAPPEN WE ARE ALL EQUAL NO MATTER OF RACE WEALTH BLOOD LINE GENDER SEXUALITY NOTHING MATTER BECOUSE APART WE FALL TOGETHER WE STAND every one is different that is why we work as a race accept differences don't punish it

those moment that start new chapters in you life

soo a year ago today i kissed my ex for the first time and i knew life was looking up then in January my mum was  told she had cancer for the third time nd here comes life smashing back to earth my mum lived nd is ok so far my ex went uni  and sadly we didn't last nd thats life again goes back to knocking me down nd this just this year life is filled with these moments but most the time we forget the happy moments right now im alone i don't like it  i need people in my life but i dont think il be meeting any one soon maby this is just the sad blog of a nobody that's  sad bitter nd lonely but i just wish these moments could leave me alone the last three years have been so hard and it wont let up to let the pain end i just wish that i could have a nice shock for once is it just me or is it every one nd has ny one ever been pulled out of this spiral if any one reads this let me know

too my woodland girl to many more interruptions

this is about a very good friend of mine you know who you are.

who wudda thought that when we met we would still be friends now the first time we met i covered my self in pastry tht stuck to my jacket nd then you you made me run off on my gf  i went home thinking you are crazy nd i still think that now but lucky for us i like crazy nd so do you years past nd my respect for you has grown your beautiful fun funny caring you stood by me through some of the hardest moments in my life you helped me to become the person i am we have had alot of fun nd alot of tears  i love you more then 99.9% of people on the planet you are amazing nd need to remember that your a super star and i lovvve you and remember you are who you are let no one judge your soul that hasn't lived your life

cuddles on a cold night

so i think im over my ex but i do miss just cuddles nd kisses not even the sex just the person there with me too watch a movie or talk about nothing for hours is it too much to ask i just wanna feel wanted or needed im not good looking im not that smart i am bright i can figure most things out nd when it comes to p.cs i rock them but thats not to brag about to girls im not a normal guy i cry  i cnt just go out nd get laid i need feelings i need to feel i got a place in life right now i dont i feel obsolete iv fought all my life nd now iv got nout to fight for  iv not got any one  to be the white knight for no1 to run through the snow to stop there tears orr to hold after they are diagnosed with cancer for the third time no 1 too be strong for i need a new fight and then maaby i could find some cuddles on a cold night.

why do we fall?

ok so everyone gets hurt that's life people use us people hurt us people lie to themselves and others with out knowing it  my ex did she killed me but she never meant to she would never hurt any one the only reason we get hurt is other people we let them in too our lives and they mess up and end up cutting us to ribbons in the process but does any one think what if they didn't where would we be today im playing rugby if my ex hadn't hurt me i wouldn't because id have never found the strength to start playing again after i got hurt   but here i am but its not just lovers who hurt you friends, family, anyone but as you fall you learn and what you learn is how to get back up how too stand at the on your own too feet how to take the pain from any card life throws at you  and this is why we fall crash and burn

to the girl that helped me over the ex too berger king nd the oaks

hello all this is about a deer friend of mine you no who you are cinders nd that's all that matters you are a star your really a life savor your beautiful inside nd out you look after me when others cba and you never stop caring i love you with all my heart u know how i fell bout you but i know why we cant be nd i understand it cinders you have made a gray life live in color again nd helped a broken man to fight again i can never thank you enough nd will never let go of you from buttons xx

single nd shitting it

 ok so im single nd i hate it right today i did some thing iv never done before and tryed to give a girl my number needles too say i failed   lol cute girl into games working in a game shop nd i thought she would be single more fool me right but she was nice about it nd said she was flattered  but it got me too thinking do girls really like it when guys make moves like that or does it piss them off i dont no  i never do this sorta thing but i dont know how else to talk to women lol im crap i freeze nd panic nd end up quoting a film or sumthing and end up kicking my self too all the girls out there how do you like guy to approach you lol it scares the shit outta us give us a clue please and if ur a cute gamer girl drop me a line lol but please help us men to help you

im back i guess :)

hello im back sorry iv been gone a while but well i lost the number one girl and well chaos followed for a while  but im back for good lil stronger and have alot more free time and now its xmas and yeh wow i have spoken to a girl today shes very smart very kind and a nice person you should reed her blog its epic  http://rebbie-shane.blogspot.com/ so goo look at hers erm so yeh good night guys hope some one reads this blog lol :P